It's Not That I Don't Want to be Alive....It's not that I don't want to be alive,Fameisdead
Not that I don't want to wake up,
In the morning.
I am just tired of living,
It's not that I want to end my days.
I just wish I had a reason,
To why I stay.
I wish I had a reason to justify,
All these bad thoughts in my mind.
Shouldn't I be happy by now?
I always end up here.
Oh, how I hate it here....
And I still fear,
4 a.m. In the morning.
I should be asleep by now,
And it's not that I don't want to sleep.
But I am so tired of counting sheep.
Don't tell me just to turn off my mind,
Because I've tried to find,
But I can't.
And sometimes I wish...
That everything would end.
I feel suicide is a better friend,
Then the one's I don't have in my contacts
But then again,
What a waste of all this time,
I've been spending.
Trying to survive.
So I promise you,
I'll at least try to fake that I am,